Daily wonders

Sometimes, I'm just wondering, about life, people, universe. wondering of how the billions amount of souls are connected by a single line of Fate under the medium called Universe. How the fate strings make their own adventure, and if by any means they meant to interject with each other, Then people will meet, love, mate, so on. Create another combination of strings which will be added to the unlimited existing strings. But when the strings separate, going back to their own track, then it means goodbye. The new strings also keep emerging and there comes the time when the string will vanish, abandoning all the strings behind, leaving traces and marks at the strings they ever touched. the longer they stick the deeper the mark will be. And they are born, death, and memory.
New strings replace the old. When the vanishing string held no more trace with the existing strings, then you'll be forgotten by the universe. No one will know about the journey of your string anymore. Sometimes, I am so amazed by the universe, how every single creature doing their own parts of life. How well the universe was built, containing every single life, breed them, even kill them.
I was one of those who believe in "everything happen for a reason". Anything will be, will be. When the string bumped into the "unmeant to bump into" strings, they will be tangled and thrived to find the way out. As in life, we'll experience so many ups and downs. because life is never going to be smooth forever. So what I'm implying here is to live our life to the fullest. Be thankful every moment. Cause nobody knows when our string will vanish forever.

Midnight call

hallo sekalian.. yeah i know, it has been quite a time since the last time i updated my blog.

 Seharusnya, gua sekarang itu sedang bobok manjah,, gigit-gigit guling cantiks dan berpetualang didalam mimpi yang akhir" ini sangat susah kuingat keesokan harinya. Tapi realitasnya, gua malahan lagi duduk syantiekss didepan laptop, sambil mengerak"an jari-jari gua yang sudah ga bisa di bilang mungil ini, ofc you know, in the midnight, seperti seorang wanita anti jetlag yang sedang memanjahkan diri di salah satu jalanan di paris. 

yeah,, this all thanks to my lovely roommate, I have tried to sleep at 11pm, and have been woken up by the sexy voice of my roommate at 1am. just what the hell is wrong with him.. why he kept talking on his phone everynight,, in such volume, while somebody is sleeping??!! just where is your common sense.. is this something i have to teach u again??? HA.. such an uneducated educated guy..

Well,, he do this routine every night, but since i always sleep after 3AM so i don't really care.. but just omg,, can't u just like go and talk outside the room, like the room is the only place for u to talk. zzz somebody ought to teach this professor some manners ckckck... everything that he know is work and work in the lab and forget all about common sense. 

Alhasil,, gua yang sudah susah payang berusaha untuk tidur, akhirnya kehilangan rasa kantuk gua, dan jadi turn on 100%. so here i am... 

I love making decison

Okay,, nobody likes to make decision, am i right? I hope all of u agree with me.
Making decisions are hard,, even choosing between what you're going to eat or which bags or clothes should u buy already hard enough. Does it ring a bell in your mind?? If so, then congratulation, we are alike, and we suck at making decision yea~

Choosing majors, for every single students in the world, is yet the most difficult moment to make in their life. Honestly, i hate it, really!! It tired me to death, i don't even fvking care with the world around me recently,, its just i was too busy watching the endless fight inside my head, where my head was gaining over my heart, and the sanity was pushed  away slowly by the insanity. I hate my overthinking self,, which allow me to keep thinking in every seconds of my life,, looking and perceiving things in every possible perspectives,, that is just too annoying arrghh.. I just wish that i could stop my mind to think even just a minute,, it even haunted me in my sleep, replacing all my beautiful night dreams i couldn't remember of
You know right,, that feeling when u wake up, with a tiring mind, like u haven't rest after memorizing every single contact from the phonebook. Its depressing :((

Even right now my logic is still fighting with my heart. Should i take a major i like or a major youre not really interested in but with a better prospect. Then my mind will keep producing the cutie" branches untill iam not able to think. I could explode any moment. Hufft...

If you do something you like, you'll not have to work a single day.

I would only work on something i like, because i know that i will workhard on it and be 100%.

Its not the matter of passion but hardwork. Everything starts from hardwork, and when you becomes good at it, you'll definitely love it.

This is some of the cutie" branchies which keep me thinking, thinking, and thinking,,,
i don't even know why do i keep thinking,, it will never bring answer to you ckckckk,, i dont know how to fix this shitty overthinker personality =="

me dunno whatever lah

Ada yang bilang gua ga konsisten
Ada yang bilang gua raja galau
Ada yang bilang gua lemah
Ada yang bilang gua gampang nyerah
Ada yang bilang gua bodoh
Ada yang bilang gua aneh
Ada yang bilang gua naif
Ada yang bilang gua gila
Ada yang bilang gua hanya menyia-yiakan kesempatan

Ada,, adaa,,,

but in the other hand,

some people say I am responsible
some people say I am strong
some people say I am persistent
some people say I am, some people sayy .....

didalam hidup ini, kita ga bakalan lepas dari yang namanya mulut manusia, sebaik apapun engkau, se perfect apapun, akan selalu ada orang yang rela menghabiskan waktu luangnya hanya untuk menceloteh, meng-judge, meng-gossip diri anda.

Tapi apalah daya,, this is how we live, this is Human.

jujur kata sih, gua lagi ga mood buat nulis, me tak bisa menyaring seluruh informasi didalam otak hamba yang lagi sangat penuh ini. so bayy bayy..

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2016

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2016

New year, New me, New Resolution, Everything new.

Throw away the OLD me who use to stress a lot about everything. Keep away from whining and stay away from any negative influence. 

I have to be a lot stronger than I had been before, no more the lazy me, the prof procrastinator. I need to be more grateful instead of complaining about every simple thing. Have to be more mature and wiser in everything. Not easily affected by negatives and become unmotivated anymore. And most of all, judge less and compare less. just take the positives and sway away all the negatives. 

Truth to be told, It is 2016 now. time just goes away so fast I couldn't let my eyes rest even for a bit. Well, let's hope I remember to change everything to 2016 and 105 (Taiwan year). I just couldn't believe that 2015 is no longer there. Well, what I really mean was "I just couldn't believe that I had suffered all through 2015". 2015 was not a really nice year for me, yeah it was like I was swimming through the quicksand while the spectators kept giving the "drown you b!tch" look. 

That year really sucked out my life source like air. I went through a lot of obstacles, I got unmotived 24/7, suffered through my depression and managed to snap out from it, but it still ticking like a time-bomb ready to KA-BOOM anytime. Fortunately,  I get to learn a lot from this year. "People said once you undergo massive troubles and manage to overcome them, you'll be revived even stronger than before. Yeah, though I still have myriad problems to work with, but I never felt much better. 

As for the Good news in this beginning of the year, I'm Positive and decided to fight again for architecture. Of course, it must be a really tough way to go. Even now I am shaking just thinking about that. I am preparing towards what would happen, I have to be much stronger and persistent. This is my choice, no regret is permitted, and I sure there won't be any regret (I hope). I learnt there isn't wrong with being unmotivated, no wrong for being gloomy, you just have to let it be sometimes. In 2016, I have to change all my bad habits and lifestyle which affect my college life, well some if not all. I hope I get to deal with all of my problems before next semester starts. Also, get the strength and motivation whenever I feel like to give up.

Last but no least, Wish you guys, once again, a very Happy New Year!!!