So Not Important

there is no normal day for me, nothing good happen in my day, instead of just my sleeping habit has been wrecked out of the journal, everything has been turned upside down, my day has become night and vice versa.  i wake up at 4pm and stayed in my bed for 2 hours reading manga, and this was how i started my day. i took a shower and went to the canteen afterward. i went there with one of my roommate, and then he invited another 2 friends to eat with us. it has been a long time for 4 of us to be gathered together, since i didn't have any similar class with three of them while they did! yeah, architect is destined to be forever alone. everybody said that architect only friends is with fellow architect. unfortunately this theory didn't work on me which made this even worse. we all talked so much, but i only joined in the laughing part, because whatever i said, my roommate will repeat what i said but in a stormy way. so what's the point of me talking anyway. so i stayed quiet for the rest time until they asked me why am i being so quiet and asked me to talked about my architect life. but i declined because i dont feel like to talked about it, also they wont understand it though. since they are so happy in the uni not like me. and everytime i talked about it my roommate like to give me that look. the look which mean just what iam stressed for. i dont even have any exam. whatever lah.. iam tired about it. i dont want to debate it anymore. he kept unhappy and want to show him to other that he endure much more hardship than me. yeah i must admit it. watching movies and playing games all  day is much more stress than doing home work all days. iam just being too lebay. satisfied??! iam sorry my roommate is a nice guy, but this thing annoyed me so much..   == ahh maybe iam just too sensitive.. forget it. i hold too many grudge against the people in my university. Noooooo the biggest is towards my classmate, i hate it everytime i looked at them, second one is my only indonesian senior.-. actually i still have one senior but he has changed his major. i hate him so much. everytime i asked him, he will answers me with an answers which was not related or he will just read me. fine.. he did this to me often, and i dont want to asked him anymore, which was also not much a help. i dont hate my other senior. i understand she is too busy with her work. i admire her so much for being able stay in this major.. hmmm... actually i got irritated with my winter homework aaahhhh... the teacher just give me a paper full of the topic of the homework without any explanation. wait he did explain something lalalaa... he said this homework must not be really hard since you guys have learnt it back in highschool. yess themm!! but not me!! wth!! grrr... i need to finish this homework before i back to indonesia but is is just so fvkng hard.. i dont have any clue about it.. ohhh why is it like this -.- anyways just forget it.. this is just any random thought to ease my anger. okay bayy..

Lost in Ban qiao

hahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahaa im lost. nyehehehe~ and now i have placed my tired body in one of the traditional restaurant that sells 火鍋 spell it "huo guo". huo guo is a kind of sang woo in indonesia. this kind of food is so common in taiwan. you can find it easily as you can find nasi campur in indonesia :D..
today is not a good day to travel because my stomach annoyed me so much, continuosly, i have entered to bathroom twice bcause of it. Actually, my purpose today is to go to the grand opening of the temple. the temple people has give me the address clearly, but i cant find it somehow. it is like the temple is being covered by some mystical mist and something has keep preventing me from reaching there. my travel is as smooth as silk not until i reach Ban qiao MRT station, that is when i got my first stomach attack. fyi Ban qiao is a big city that was believed to be the center of taipei city in the past. it is a big and modern city. there are so many skyscrapper and modern architecture. but not with the Bus station, i need to ride a bus to the venue, but cause my stomach is burdening me so much i need to went to the toilet. to be honest, the design is s.u.c.k. i understand it is so old already, but the toilet is just too something i should say. it is so creepy and it emits a strange fragnant. it was like the one i smell back when my junior high school was being sprayed by the mosquito medicine to prevent DBD. yoloo.. i finished my part quickly and stormed away from that place. i board the 307 bus to the venue, but till halfway i just realised that i board the wrong direction bus. the bus i need to take is 307 to the west but i took 307 east. hmm.. so, i jumped down the bus and board the west one. the bus was full at the time and i need to stand all the way for quite a distance. i rushed to the nearest sevel eleven as soon as i left the bus and throw a blow there. yes, i weak against motion sickness and i vomit my breakfast all the way. yuckk lolol after that i began my ecpedition to search for the temple. i spent almost 1 hour pattoling around the place, asking few bypasser and still no result. i realised that the last number i can find is 465 as the one i need to go is 466. so i kept searching and searching for the 466 till i got a call from my stomach *again* arrghh.. this made me need to went to seven again. after that i gave up to find the place and find myself inside the food store now. okay.. my 火鍋 has arrived and here it is The traditional chinese herb and mushroom to enhance my strength after all of the beat ahahha..  itadakimasuu~

Random night-dawn-morning

i don’t know whether i am crazy or something goes wrong in my head, but what i DO know is it’s 4.50 in the morning iam still fully awake, laying in my "not fluffy" bed, and letting myself exposed to the radiation of the cellphone in the middle of the darkness. these kind of bad habits has last for about 4 days, and iam started to feel that 4am is still to early for sleep. literally like 11pm in my school days. thus my mind kept thinking in wilderness, thinking of nonsense thing, like "i think it’s better for me to move to europe or Amerika, because it suits me better. i don’t need to get all stress about this alien language,  the miscomunication between classmates etc. and of course i wont get a jetlag wkwkk..
My days is just like the usual, (you know how it is) the only good things is just i have finished all of my works for this semester. and finally i can get relax and doing everything i want, everything i want to do when i cant, without any burden in my heart. yeah.. because at least in a weeks i was having 3 to 4 kinds of different homework, and each could take a day or half to finished. just imagined, even if you have a free time, even just a little, can you really relax your mind, soul, and body, relaxly like relaxa ._. Ofc no... how could you... it is like one of your feet has been restrain with a chain that restrict your movement. But when i think about it, as soon as i started my first day in architecture school, emm.. no maybe when i got admitted in the department. ii have been bind tightly with the unescapable fate. errr... so, i am felling so much at ease now.. iam soo relieveddd... but i didnt last long, just a couple minutes later, i got a news that my WINTER assignment will be collected on 25 february, and you will have your design studio that includes presenting your assignment in front of class on 26february. WTH with this schedule!! i will be arriving in taiwan at 26feb in the afternoon.. ju st tt.... OMG it sucks! the very first day of the beginning of the new semester, and i will have to face this shitty class. t.t 天啊啊！i.am.just.speechless. just when this class wont keep annoy mee! -_- it.makes.me.hates.and.hates.and.hates.this.major.even.more aarrrggjhh bebek panggang cappucino lahh!!

Insomnia

helloo there~ hehe.. finally after going through so much hardship, and the up and down state in my life, my design class is overr... yayyy *crying in happiness* okay.. let’s save that talk for later, and what i am going to state now is it is 5.34 A.M now! and i am still feeling so energetic. trying to sleep half hour ago and failed. and now here i am, grabbing my phone, writing some words, waiting for my sleepyness to come, accompanied by my noisy roomate. i dunno what kind of voice he is making. he is just keeping mumbling through his sleep. but judge from the sound, nightmare isn’t much a choice(?) or he is just too good in enjoying his sleep(?) Nevermind. Cool, due too my changing time of sleep, i have been observing all my roomate sleeping habit unavoidably. yeahh... actually my sleeping habit has changed drastically these past few months and i am officially became an night owl, just look at this, i am still messing with my blog when everyone has started to wake up. but what should i do, habit is just a habit hahaha.. so whenever i tried to sleep, it took me a lot of effort to do so and my mind will just started to fly over time make me began to think about my past time. like yesterday, i was thinking about my childhood times, when everything were still so fine, no stress, no burden, nothing to worry, the time when i can still live my day happily and innocently, the time when i was still learning how to live (and still until now), the time when i will cried everytime i was scolded by my parents or teased by my siblings as if crying could solve everything.. aahh~ miss those times alott... i just wish that i could still possess that innocent life, but it cant be help.. a wish is just a wish, obly a super miracle could grant it, as people will grow older and older, living another new days and leaving it only as memories. yeah.. it is nature law, the law that cant be break no matter how you tried it. unless the making of time machine come into a success and vastly become household utilities, and just then can we think over about all of this nature law. talking about time machine, there sure is something i wanna check about. maybe it is just my imagination or iam watching doraemon too much but i still remember there is some times in my past that happen a quite strange thing, that is still unsolved till now. but one thing, iam not sure is whether that was just my dream or it is trully happen. "It happened in one morning, when iam still a kid, i was having school that day if it is right, i wake up in a sleepy state and when i am trying to go downstairs, i thought that i slipped through the stairs, but in flash, i had arrived downstairs, left me unscarred as if i was never slipped. it felt like i was flying down through, my body felt so light, but afterall the memory is so foggy". i have ever heard things about guardian angel that could save you when you are facing danger. maybe it is true, that that time i was saved by it, because due to my falling position, i must be really scary to imagine. but just but i really want to make sure of it, by time machine of course hahaha... because i love mystery.. and solving it is just too heaven haha. The most stupid condition that i come up with is maybe that the me of the future that was going to make sure of that situation managed to go back to that time. and the situation is just like i said, but that time i feel that i was trully in danger and unconciously rushed in and save my past me, and because children memory is still so fragile plus the memory from after sleep, maybe it was altered by itself. so that makes me into my own guardian angel right? silly? hahaha thats so me.. i am too silly to be true wkwkwkwk.. But if my theory is right, why i dont feel that kind of  oddity anymore? or just i dont remember it? or the future-me altered my memories completely so that i dont remember any of our meeting, or just in the future the usage of time machime has been banned, ithas so much possibilities. i will end up insane thinking about it all. hahaa... but there’s a time mystery is better to be left unsolved. woaahh i have managed to write this much.. hehehe.. and it is 6.20A.M now.. yep maybe i can sleep now hahaaa.. noooo... i still have class at 2.. fightingg... one more week to the end of semester.. go go go...

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yeahh my friend has tired to hear all of my whinning. tired looking at my galau side. stress everyday like some crazy biatch. indeed.. i myself also tired of all this things. i realised that this major is just not for me.but whats the point of realising it rightnow. all i was now is just focusing of finishibg my work although i dont know how to do it. it is just too hard.. this fact is just too funny and ridiculous to be truth. just why do i meet all the criteria that i hate in this major... everything that i hate indeed is here.. the very place iam standing right now. arrrggghhh... i really want to change my major but where too... nope just thinking of how am ibl supposed to survive the remaining semester is hard enough. i will be dead meat by then. t.t just whyy it is this hardd ohmygodd...i really have so much things to write but i have spill everything to my friends and i think they are going to puke now.. hearing the same whinning from me over and over again.. hiaaattt it is just kind of hard to turn your imagination into a real things.. ii is hard to produce that kind of thing. i have find many difficulties on doing that using paper. and now i need to use wood OH NO.. i cant find a way to cut it into accurate size. no, i cant even cut it into a shape near the one i want. furthermore i need to connect the thin wood one by one to shape it until 2 meter tall.. arrrggghjj... how am i suppose to connect it... nailing isnt choice since the wood is too thinn aaarrrggghhh this is why... iam getting stress over and over again. i just dont have any clue about it. i dont even know what to do. T.T and i dont have anyone to ask about this kind of crapp!!! i just can ask the shopkeeper about how and how. t.t hikss.. you guys will never know how this feel like hah... i will just look like a simple matter thing to other. bla bal bla.. but to tell you this is much more harder than any exam. while in exam you can still make an effort to do it. while in doing model. i just can sit in front of it. dunno what to do. aaarrrrrr
and to tell you today is the very first time of me doing a model in the studio and it was soo hell. i spent my entire time there doing fail thing. i dont produce anything. all i know is just three kind of my saw cant be use to saw the wood aarrggghh really want to let go all of this thing but howww.... arrrgghhh i have go through all of this so farr. it surprised me though. just thinking back How did i endure all of this things aaaaaahhhh.... just trun me into doll with sugar ability so that everybody in the world will forget me.. zzzz... dont wanna live anymore hiksssssssss...!!!