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yeahh my friend has tired to hear all of my whinning. tired looking at my galau side. stress everyday like some crazy biatch. indeed.. i myself also tired of all this things. i realised that this major is just not for me.but whats the point of realising it rightnow. all i was now is just focusing of finishibg my work although i dont know how to do it. it is just too hard.. this fact is just too funny and ridiculous to be truth. just why do i meet all the criteria that i hate in this major... everything that i hate indeed is here.. the very place iam standing right now. arrrggghhh... i really want to change my major but where too... nope just thinking of how am ibl supposed to survive the remaining semester is hard enough. i will be dead meat by then. t.t just whyy it is this hardd ohmygodd...i really have so much things to write but i have spill everything to my friends and i think they are going to puke now.. hearing the same whinning from me over and over again.. hiaaattt it is just kind of hard to turn your imagination into a real things.. ii is hard to produce that kind of thing. i have find many difficulties on doing that using paper. and now i need to use wood OH NO.. i cant find a way to cut it into accurate size. no, i cant even cut it into a shape near the one i want. furthermore i need to connect the thin wood one by one to shape it until 2 meter tall.. arrrggghjj... how am i suppose to connect it... nailing isnt choice since the wood is too thinn aaarrrggghhh this is why... iam getting stress over and over again. i just dont have any clue about it. i dont even know what to do. T.T and i dont have anyone to ask about this kind of crapp!!! i just can ask the shopkeeper about how and how. t.t hikss.. you guys will never know how this feel like hah... i will just look like a simple matter thing to other. bla bal bla.. but to tell you this is much more harder than any exam. while in exam you can still make an effort to do it. while in doing model. i just can sit in front of it. dunno what to do. aaarrrrrr
and to tell you today is the very first time of me doing a model in the studio and it was soo hell. i spent my entire time there doing fail thing. i dont produce anything. all i know is just three kind of my saw cant be use to saw the wood aarrggghh really want to let go all of this thing but howww.... arrrgghhh i have go through all of this so farr. it surprised me though. just thinking back How did i endure all of this things aaaaaahhhh.... just trun me into doll with sugar ability so that everybody in the world will forget me.. zzzz... dont wanna live anymore hiksssssssss...!!!