Just sometimes

Sometimes.. Sometimes ... I ask me why, i wonder why, this question keep wandering inside my mind like the thrust empty wind. I don't know whats this feeling that keeps hollowing me. Haunting me, insisted for some revelation or whatever you call it. Just there is a time, i would feel myself so pitiful. I know i am not in the condition to pity my self in contrast to them with the worse situation. But this is just some kind of thought okay. This is just the little question that has been hardening all this time inside my deepest heart. I've been holding up for all this time you know. I've kept telling myself, lying to my self, convincing myself, that i am alright, that i am fine, that i've go through well. But deep inside, i feel so lonely. For all this time,, farrr since i am such a small innocent boy. I keep asking to myself, i keep asking my mom, i keep looking around desperately, searching for one solid reason that i wish i could really understand. whyy whyy just whyy am i so lonely, what wrong i have done for me to be such a lonely child. Just why am i be the one that can only want to have the warm, happy, feeling of having their dear friends beside them. Ive been longing for this all this time. I am so lonely you know, why for all the things i have to be the one who plays by himself, accepting toys to be his only friend, while all the child of his age playing happily together. I wonder why, i wish i could really know why, But everything only remains as why.. Why?? I dont know exactly why. It is just a why? And you know why? Don't ask me why.