Case Closed

如果你願意一晨一晨一晨的剥开我的心
If you willing to layers by layers, peel and look inside my heart
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
You will build up in tears
只要你能听到我看到我的全心全意。
Just only if you can see or hear my whole heart, whole feeling.

I really love this song.. Its like describing my whole complicated feeling.
Maybe some people will think what the heck is going on with me. He is just crazy, just why did he keep pestered by all of this thing. All i can say is, u need to feel for u to understand. No matter how umuch u understand, how much you tried to feel it, unless u got it on ur own, u will definetely get what i mean by all this times.
Just to tell u, i dont want to give any shitto that anymore. I'll just let it be. Just try to live this way since i wasn't such a bad kind of life to live. It is just because u made urself to think this way. Your expectation that kind of perfect social life is just too overbroad. Helloo.. This is not some kind of drama u watch in television. This is life broo.. And life is never easy. Life is cruel. That's the first point why we are alive now anyway. To amend and atone for our sins.
But life isn't always cruel. It just depends how you are living your life. Just enjoy it. You dont need to spend your entire time to keep questioning about your ansos life. Since you still have alot more interesting things to do. You'll find so much you can do with that time you waste. Alone don't always a bad idea. People were born alone to this world anyway lol..
Yang penting, i dont care anymore. I am not alone. There are aloott of people in this world that is having thus kind of problem, or even even worse. Just because you are sick of your circle dont mean you need to let that sickness affected your life. So this problems are concluded this way..
Hahahaha.. No more post about this shit, and im going to end this now.

Okay, so lately i've been losing sleep.. Just kidding, most of my class has over now so i can sleep until whatever time it is. The crazy thing is, cause of my  whole "staying up all night" things, my sleep cycle has gotten even more crazier. Day has become my night literally. Just to be more actual, it is 06.10 in the morning now, and i havent even get to sleep. Cool isnt it. But still class over doesn't mean the homework has over. I still have two class homework need to be done by 30/6
So basically, it is alot more tranquil now but still not reaching the definition of freedom.
Speaking of freedom, entering architecture school, that means you have sold away your freedom to the teacher. The freedom that u safe securily with your life, has lost. Architecture means no freedom. Even in holiday. It is even worse if you got a holiday, the teacher will just adding extra to you since u'll be hhaving more free time.
Like this summer holiday. Which is 2months and a half long. Such a long time and the best time for u to start you long planned activities that havent been done till now.
Summer holiday, the thought that would have come to people mind is vacation, freedom, the only time i can finally get a rest from all the shit in the semester. I can finally get a rest and going into hibernation.
But not for achitecture. Although the curriculum has been more harder and
Dense than others, but still they dont give any happy holiday to us.
The teacher just give us the accumulation of homework you will get in that amount of time.. Mampus inggris hancur bener ini.. Lol
Not much lahh.. Only two kinds of homework.. Two kinds..   ........ 😐
The first "areee" 480 drawings to be done.. Holy shitss whatdepakk.. Wat da hell.. Are yoymu fukcing kidding mehh??!!
Hellooo its 480 brooo not 48. Even 48 are so much alreadyy..
Even if i managed to finished 10 a day i will need 48days =="" only if i do.

Ga puas gurunya hanya kasih 480bijiks gambar.  Dikasih lagi peer kedua.
Which is 8 models. You need to design a vacation house. Included with the interior. The concept. The development and eveyrhing. And 8 maquettes and 4 posters minimal shit shit shitt.. Is this holiday or what.. You are insane.. This is the typical of second year teacher. Belum masuk tahun kedua udah kek gini.. Mau jadi apa aku pas tahun kedua.. Shity babi anjing laut kura kura betinaaaaa..

Hanya ada satu pesan dari saya

DONT TAKE ARCHITECTURE !!

"Kalo mau hidup normal"

As soon as you enter, you'll be taken farr awayy from what it is being in a normal life means.

Iam the victim. We are the victim!!
Hanya saja sudah terlanjur apa boleh buat hikss.. Jalani saja..
Architecture + shitty circle + chiitty seniors + shitty languages + shitty people done udah.. Hufft.. What a cool life.. Hahaha
Kapan lagi kan bisa gini.. Kehidupan uni yang menabjubkan.. Kan dipikir pikir keren juga.. Jarang" ada yg kek ginian.. Enamtar juga bakalan jadi pengalaman yg indah dan tak terlupakan. Bahkan mungkin entar gue bakalan merindukan saat saat seperti ini.. Saat" guesibuk banget sampe mau gilak dgn jurusan ini, saat saat gue galau beratt, saat saat gue sendiri dan bisa melakukan dan menikmati hal hal Hanya bisa didapati waktu sendiri. Semua ini berupa pengalaman, experience and memories build up your life. And i soe point in your life, you'll miss this moment so so so bad.. 😁😁 dan sekali lagi semua ini hanya di arsitektur.
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Night fellasss ----- 06.46am