MY WORST TIME IN LIFE

oh god... help me please!! iam really stuck now... arrrggggghhhhhhhhhh....... getting all depresed every day is so so so hardd... i don’t know what to d with my architecture school.. it’s just too hard for mee.. huaaaaa nooooo!!!! i’m going crazyyy.... s*it! i don’t know where to star because i have never said it in my blog. i don’t know what to to with my super cracy hellist homework!! it is just too hard for me.. imagined getting all stress about hwork every day, hust how hard it is for me to being all like this. *i really feel like to slam everything beside me right now! i always thinking of give up and let go of this architecture! but... nomatter how i can’t find the give up option. i hope i can just find it in the toolbar and click it! as you know i"m the most stupid student in the class in term of architecture. all of my class mates already 3  years ahead of me since theor high school is all focusing on architecture lesson. and me?! all i know is just the perspective shit and other so not important things that i learnt from the so called art class back in my high school. and here i am. sitting like an idiot in a class. don’t understand what they are talking about. not only because i"m fallen back 3 years from them, but also my chinese is so bad! arrgghhh... i still remember the first architecture class.. i brings me alot of trauma. t.t we need to draw 42 drawings and making 3 models for next week.. and without the teaching of the teacher.. i was just like "shitt.. what am i going to do! i even don’t now what a model is! grrrr.... i spent my day like i was living in hell for a week. and we also need to present our design in front of the class everything you did! it"s so shityy!! regardless of my bad chinese, i need to present my "only know about 1 week" model, yeah it’s so so ugly! and all of my friends’ is like god-made! == i’m so down on the place and until now i’m not making any significant progress and need to face all of this pressure every week. fyi i dont have friend here, so all i do wall doing everything alone, trying to understand what is right and wrong and improving slowly by making my routine mistakes! i don’t know how to say! the pressure is just too greatt!! it’s like you need to pose nude.in front of the class every week. haiihhhh... i just cant imagine this all will he this hard. at first i think that i will like architecture so much, because i like drawing and now! because of all this shtiiy things and the hell amount of home work that make me need to do homework over time, i began hating drawing! give me back my free time!!! arrrggghhhhh... i’m so confusedd lonely mad angry at the same time. T.T i wanna cry but i can’t.. mamaaaaa!!!! huaaaaaa what should i doooo now! i don’t even understand the topic for next week.. i really don’t understand it this time.. huhuhuu... i really want to skip the class.. because it will just embarassed my self by showing there with my strrange design...ahhhhh.... why it turn out like thisss... what should i do nowww..... SHITTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!##### even just one good friend can make me betterr... i’m like surviving in the middle of alien.. i cant stand it!!! it’s like i’m the most struggling one in the class.. every body is just like happy go well every day.. and i was like bringing my dark cloud every where i go..actually i don’t really hope fpr a friend because i think ot os just too much, but at least people can pay attention to me and help me. they just dont know how hard i feel because they are still in their cage. they have never experience how it feels to go out of your cage and go into others cage. .____.
I AM SO LONELY!!